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Thank you mellyjelly/drumthings for this fantabulous skin=D

it hit me, just so recently..
without her, i m still me
without her, i m still the one who knows what i want in life and how to get it
without her, i m still able to love
without her, i m able to move on with my life and find someone who will make me happy and treat me as who i m.

but most of all, without her, i m alive.

18 more days till its over.
it lasted 303 days (i finally prepared everthin today)

there'd been sth fishy on fri 13 yday..it seemed to show signs of HER.
why???
the day started off with me goin to sch to meet mrs yeo for proj
and the feedback session had her name there.
BIG NAME on the paper.
oh wel, aft tt i took mrt to habourfront.
and there were students fr zhangde pri (where she comes from) counting numbers in chinese from 1-100+-god knows wad.
and at vivocity, went pass a shop with her name.

all this happened yday. and i went to the hospital.
i am reading 'tuesdays with morrie' for the 2nd time nw.
its a diff feeling altogether. i watched the movie too on hallmark
its a touching 1, better than 'the five people you meet in heaven'

next week wil be THE proj.
it will be YOUR SAY so yups. hoping for the best
whatever the results, we hav done our best for the students alrdy

really.

PS we are still students and we face the same kinda stress they do but even more. MUCH MORE..

WTC was excellent!! go check out amirul's blog to understand wad i mean.

it shows us the power of the human spirit.

i cried as usual. when nicolas cage said "u..kept...me...alive"

if only SHE knew it (but who cares anyway? she doesnt so y sd i rite?)

anyway, yday stayed baq for exco meeting. discussed abt THE proj..

aft tt went baq with jev. we talked abt life's bothering issues.

i wish to get over it, seriously.

i shan't care anymore

i m gonna stop thinkin

stop breathin

to get over this

just once

in the midst of exams nw. somehow the thought of letting go seems to be tugging at my heartstrings yet again.

i have decided to officially let everything go on 011106 once and for all.

whether she appreciates it its up to her. i have done what i could, my very best alrdy. i made so many sacrifices, promises and everything i could ask for

just DIDNT COME TRUE

this are the last few times i'll be emo cos i m gonna move on with life and take what it throws at me

world trade center is out and it just pains my heart to watch the movie having been to ground zero myself

what has become of this world such that things done by you are never appreciated but are taken for granted?

WHY?

u like to see me suffer like that?

is euthanasia the way to go now?or just plain suicide?

23 more days to give up all my hopes, promises aspirations and god-knows-what.

happy now??

-------------nicH